Thursday, December 23, 2004
hello there all!
hmm.. u know.. i think i need to hmm talk this out. there is this guy.. i met him abt a year ago. he was silent.. and well i thought seemed kind of unfriendly.. but he and me sort of got to know each other better and almost got together i guess.. until.. well we figured we needed some time off for my exams.. but recently.. after not speaking for abt 4 mths.. after my exams are way over.. we're getting close again... everyone approves of him and .. well they have started to even refer to him as my boyfriend.. fine and good.. but.. there are some glitches to this fairytale..
1. i dont think i want to get attached to anybody at all.. remaining single.. its the life right?? i mean.. being single means u can go out with anybody u want.. have flings.. hahah and flirt with anybody without being guilty at all.. now isnt that fun??!! haiz.. yeah sure there's the occasional loneliness.. but ive learnt to deal with it.. my lonely time is filled up with all the books i read.. yes ladies and gentlemen.. i am quite a bookworm.. so.. this is problem (1)
2. the other problem is that.. almost always.. 'the other guy'. i met him before i left for melbourne.. went out with him for just that night.. the same night i first met him.. we were supposed to be casual friends.. but i dunno.. he just rubbed me the right way.. hahahah no puns intended and i especially love the way he held me.. he's tall.. he's cute.. and well.. he's nice.. did i mention semi-religious? haha well now that i am in melbourne.. i meet him online every other night.. we dont do anything but talk.. as days go by.. i realize what an intruiging person he is.. he's smart too.. he is so evasive to the point of being extremely fascinating. haiz.. but then.. he's younger and thus i thought maybe i shouldnt even bother.. wouldnt wanna waste my time on him right? do another ashiq? hahah
so.. yeah basically i just wanted to point that out.. im kinda sorta ina fix.. dunno what is gonna happen when i get back.. i know this younger guy.. lets call him mr y .. he is gonna take me out.. i dunno where and in what context but yeah he's gonna ask me out..
the other guy.. the one i met a year ago.. lets call him mr x.. i think things are gonna be a bit more serious when i get back.. he msgs me everyday when im here.. and well i do too.. haiz.. i dunno la.. what can i do??
hmm.. i shall update when im done thinking things through.. take care sweets!!
muackz.
Bob Smurf at 7:14 PM