Monday, January 31, 2005

Im having a down..

i feel so down.. this is crap.. i hate guys at this moment in time.. im starting to hate my family too.. grr.. why? shall not say.. maybe i shouldnt say all this cos it might just come true..

this sux.. im just here to rant.. if u dont like what im saying here feel free to go away.

i dont get why pple are still so attached to their old school.. get on with ure life please??!! sheesh.. they dont want u there.. they are just too nice to say anything..

the whole reason why u miss it is cos u miss the times ure with ure frends right?? not the blardy school!!

fuck it la.

i should just change my name to fuck the fucking fucker.

i feel so shit right now even shit would be disgusted... haiz..

dont talk to me.. im just some angry hormonal kid who just got replaced from the favourite kid shelf..

big fucking difference right?
yeah so fuck it...

i hate pple who try to be like so nice and everything.. keep asking if im ok but in truth u dont really care.. its just a formality sake thing..

so what if im not smiling.. what so i have to keep smiling just to keep ure fucking day happy? fuck you! and stop asking me if im ok..

some pple make mistakes.. some are goddesses.. they dont forget.. i made one simple mistake and i get fucked up for it? shut the fuck up la.. next time do the fucking thing ureself..

and there is this dumb fuck guy who shall not be named.. but from what i am about to say about him u might just know.. if u dont.. too bad. he's a dumb fuck.. he dont care about his friends in school.. he would rather just stick to his freaking fucker best frend.. who is as ugly as a toad but just cos she's 'not Singaporean' means she is more special than us lot? yeah sure.. she's EXOTIC.. fuck up and die u bloody bastard.. i dont ever want to see u again.

but in case i do.. here's the thing.. FUCK U!

i hate backstabbers.. not that they have made themselves known to me..
i hate converters too.. who the hell are they to say that their religion is the right one?? have THEY died and come back?? show me one person who has and maybe just maybe i will believe u..but before that.. FUCK YOU TOO!

i hate this shit.. i hate it... i dont think i need to be this all pent up anymore.. i hate the accusations.. teh stupidity.. the whats it.. damn it la.. i just want to pack up and leave..

but cant.. education is waiting.. for my benefit.. not anybody elses... i tell u... if i was that evil.. i would just leave when i start working.. not a hesitant look back.. how they gonna survive? use the pension money that u are keeping la.. for what also i dunno..

im so angry with u.. yet u choose to ignore me.. and make me angrier.. u dont wanna talk things out with me.. yet u yell.. when i yell back im in the wrong.. all because u are older than me.. sometimes i just want to tell u to shut up.. but i cant... im in my own nature good.

...unless im very very angry..

so moral of the story today would be that yes i am disturbed.. and yes i hate ure fucking guts.. get a life and stop reading my fucking entry.

Bob Smurf at 9:32 PM

Sunday, January 16, 2005

Tmr is my birthday.. yeay!! yeay!!.. hahah

hmm.. uploaded some pics from my melbourne trip.. i know.. long overdue but hey. it's still up there..
when i get batts fro my camera.. ill upload more pics..
hahaha
amazing..


ok la.. i gtg.. bubyezz

Bob Smurf at 4:03 PM

me and my cuz-neela.

kak nora, nithya (cuz), me and kak aiza.

kak aiza, nithya, me and neela.

at federation square in melbourne.

Me Sis and nit at Lonsdale.

Bob Smurf at 3:42 PM

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

- who needs enemies when you've got family -

Bob Smurf at 7:20 PM

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

Dear bloggy..

yeah well i am back.. hahah sorry have been neglecting my blog.. cos.. well busy la.. im currently working at SFTD = School For The Deaf. (no.. not as a cleaner.. as a relief teacher..) anyway.. teaching there is real cool.. the kids are all sooo nice... no communication save them lip reading and me handing out my marker to them to write on the board.. haha oh well.. but i am slowly but surely learning to sign.. its wayyy cool.. hahah 2 new languages will be achieved by this year.. ahha amazing.. sign language and mandarin.. haha. yep taking mandarin lessons. i thought hey why not since most jobs want pple who can speak mandarin.. so i figured hahah why not. by learning mandarin i get more job opportunities..

hmm talking abt jobs.. i went for a job interview just now at the gateway building. for a mag company.. ok u must be wondering why im looking for another job right? well basically.. im a relief teacher.. covering for a teacher who cant be in school for the moment.. Mr. Dennis.. is their social studies teahcer as well as computer teacher.. so yeah i cover that.. for only 2 weeks!!! sadness.. anyway.. sorry to deviate.. my job interview was wayyy cool. haha i wasnt even scared.. true the interviwers really intimidated us but i dunno.. the scariness of it all just made it all the more appealing.. michelle agrees. heheh oh well.. at least mogi and mich will be with me if we get the job..

hmm.. ok what else was interesting today? hmm.. oh.. i bought chocolates for my students.. hahah i cant help it.. they are sooo adorable.. especially my primary 4 kids.. sadly i only see them once a week. means i get to see them next week and then no more..
waaah!!! oh well.. told my mom that if the school needs any relief call me.. hehe

hmm.. what else?

i finished my book.. 2 out of 3.. i still have my 3rd book.. kushiels avatar.. the final and concluding book.. ahhaa
amazing..

hmm..
ok nothing else..

have fun ya'll!

Bob Smurf at 8:43 PM