Monday, October 10, 2005
angels in america
she says:
" In the entire world, you are the only peron, the only person i love or have ever loved. And i love you terribly. Terribly. That's what makes it so awful, irreducibly real. i can make up anything, but i cant dream that away."Just something from class today.. those in ts will know.. man.. its such a gripping scene. but i feel the same way as she. a pleading feeling that cannot be answered.. looking for that second chance and recognition of their past. i know its awfully lame of me to write all this about you. sometimes even i think you dont deserve this. but what can i do. its hit me hard. i want to forget you. but i cant. i dont think pleading for that second chance will work because you dont and wont feel the same way. you ask me what i apologise for. i apologise for being in love with you. i apologise because i want you to still be my friend. i apologise because im torn between friendship and deeper feelings. its complicated. but maybe.. ure right:
it's probably nothing dont get me wrong.. i value ure friendship like nobody's business.. its real for me. its the deepest that i know. the level of trust i have with you is unlike anything. i love being your friend and insulting the socks off you. haha but sometimes ure so 'sensitive'.. where's the balls then huh?? haha..ok crudeness..
right.. so im going off now.. wanna go play age of mythology.. muakcz!
Bob Smurf at 8:12 PM