Tuesday, March 21, 2006
lives and loves
i owe pple money.. i need to pay them before i forget and go on with my life.. it's very scary.. my religious teacher is getting to me..
1) i owe person A abt $200 odd.. since end of sec 4.. hmm.. it's been 4 years..
2) i 'borrowed' some money from person B who is very close to me.. he doesnt know i took the money.. thus the "". i owe him abt $200 odd too. sheesh.. im thinking of just putting the money back.. i took the money when i was much much younger.. been abt 2 yrs already.. sigh~.. need to pay back..sigh~
someone help!!!.. i need to pay back these pple before i die.. and before they die.. sadness.. i dont wanna burn in hell. i need to get a job.
u know the hardest part is when i have to tell them abt the money that im paying back.. sigh~.. especially person B.. he might be really pissed at me.. sigh~.. but the worst is to see him really disappointed in me.. sigh~..
im such a horrible person.
i lied to some guy who likes me just now.. he asked me what i was doing and even though i was at home watching the simpsons on cable.. i told him i was out with a guy friend and we were gonna watch a movie. he got really pissed at me cos firstly i was with a guy and it was not him.. and secondly.. we were gonna watch a movie. i then told him that this guy friend of mine already has a gf and that we were just friends.. but i dont think he gets it.. he still thinks im gonna do something awful.. sigh~ am i that evil?? yeah.. i just wanted to see his reaction.. if only he didnt tell me he missed me so much.. or that he really wants to talk to me.. or if he didnt ask m whereabouts 24/7.. i mean he'd be a nice friend.. a pretty decent guy i wouldnt mind getting to know him better.. sigh~... i told my mom abt him.. she wasnt too happy either.. oh well.
give me hope.. give me strength..give me the faith to carry on.
Ana
Bob Smurf at 10:43 PM