Wednesday, April 19, 2006
it could be so sweet..
i dont really have anything to say actually.. just felt the need to update my blog..currently talking to N on MSN.. am superdeduper happy. hahaha gasp!.. he's leaving for lunch.. oh well.. at least we talked. he said he's super busy..
im supposed to meet nuha and shaf at parkway.. then probably will go study at the library. i made a sorta bet thing with a friend that i will expand my social circle starting from the library.. im supposed to go up to a potential friend in the library and well.. make friends.. hahah its sooo much easier said than done.
i went to school to study yesterday.. bad idea.. i reached school at 2.. and well.. by then.. there were NO PLACES TO STUDY LEFT! sheesh.. dont these people have homes?? hahah i had to go to school to collect my french paper..yeah well.. so i had to spend abt 4 hours studying on the floor of the library.. not that im complaining.. i chose a nice spot where at the end of the aisle was this ang moh who was not that bad looking.. and HE WAS CHECKING MME OUT! no kidding really.. haha oh well..
my mom made ayam chilli padi yesterday.. and well i ahd that for dinner on an empty stomach... BAD IDEA!.. i couldnt sleep the whole night! cos my tummy was tooo hot la.. i dunno if u have ever experienced it.. highly uncomfortable.. erk.. and yeah well.. it was really painful at abt 5 plus.. so i had to wait till my parents got up at 630 to get some meds... boy was i in pain.. yeah so i tried going to sleep after that but couldnt really.. so.. well.. hahah i dunno la.. had to get up when the drilling started.. poor me.. sigh~
but well.. i cant waste time.. need to study!! pain or no pain!..i think its going to rain..OH!!.. my aunt gave me the ipod nano!!! yeayy!but its like 1 GB.. oh well.. i am gonna pay her la.. i dont wanna have to be indebted.. she says i can pay whenever.. but i dont feel so good la.. i mean.. yeah.. its not a good feeling.. after what happened..
azny wants me to go with her to watch click 5 at zouk tonight.. as much as im tempted to go.. i dont think i wanna spend my time that way... i mean.. there's like CSI tonight at 10.. and well.. i need to study!.. my insides are like really scared cos my exam is this sat and im not done studying... WHAT AM I DOING BLOGGIN???! hahah ill tell u why.. im charging my sister's ipod mini so that i have some music when im studying later.. hmm.. for a new batt.. the batt dies pretty fast huh? ok fine.. maybe not la..i had it on non-stop for abt 5 hours yeaterday.. ok granted.. thats pretty long.
okies.. im supposed to meet the little chipmunks at PP at 1.. its abt 1230 now.. better kiss my mommy and get going.. hehe.. i think i kinda like studying at this point in time.. haha gives me something to do..wonder what im gonna do for my 3 months... work. haha yeah and tutor... haha definitely!
okla i really need to go before it rains... but this damn batt is like not charging properly!!! so slowww!.. okla.. maybe its cos i used it like a lot yesterday.. oh well... lalala.. i better go.. see ya soon! hopefully after the exams.. weee~
Bob Smurf at 12:15 PM
Monday, April 10, 2006
not to be soo drama
Dear readers..(hahah what a joke.. hardly anybody reads this)
well.. after my episode with d&m yesterday.. i slept with my eyes swollen from too much crying. i felt bad. i was highly emotional and thus the crying did not stop. which..of course led to me going to school today with swollen eyes..but.. dont care really. but thing is.. im heartbroken. (i know some people out there are groaning and saying ,' not again!') well.. its true.. ive been heartbroken many times but this one is different. why different? ill tell you.
He is taller than me.. much taller. so much so that if i try put my arms around him to comfort him he has to REAlly bend his knees. He's fair with short cropped hair. a neat cut u know? he's also the lanky muscular types that i like.. the not too skinny yet not too burly either types. best of all.. he loves me. and i love him back.
well.. the story goes like this. a teacher was really being a bitch about something. and i was the brunt of it. a male teacher. and this dear guy of mine.. he decided to do something abt it.. so he lured the teacher somewhere and put itching powder all over the teacher. pretty neat huh? just for me. BUT he got caught and well.. they didnt really punish him or anything.. but they kicked him out of the students union. oh yeah.. i forgot to mention.. he was a key committee member of the student union. they also kicked him out of his favourite sport..rugby.
i of course was with him all the way.. i stayed with him when they told him the bad news.. so as the day ended with his 'sentence', i tride to comfort him with a hug and a peck.. everything was perfect.
until of course.. i was woken up by my alarm. yes.. i know.. huge let down.. can you imagine.. it was perfect. but it was just a dream.never in my whole life have i ever woken up to a broken heart before.. trust me.. it hurts just the same.
oh well.. dreams never come true.. but just in case.. i will keep my eyes open for 'him' in school.. u never know.. 'he' might just exist...
take care all,
Ana
Bob Smurf at 8:36 PM