This song is different.. its sooo.. punk.. in a gothic way.. by the way i checked the title means rescue me.. nice song.. take a hear.. =)
Bob Smurf at 3:32 AM
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
my fix..
A.. and B... 2 pple that are in my life right now.. amazing..
im in a fix.. but not really a fix.. im meeting A later.. he's called A cos i met him first.. i dont think he loves me.. or even like me in that way.. i think he just wants to get into my pants.. bad right? yeah.. but then again.. i could never really figure out the guy.. so maybe this is how he functions. he never reciprocates anymore.. like how he used to.. maybe he's distancing himself from me cos he's leaving? (ack.. i think u all know who this is already) oh well.. before i left.. all i wanted was for him to love me back.. but then i realised after being away from him for abt 3 weeks.. with no contact for almost 2.. that i CAN live without him. and that he doesnt deserve me really... but dammit.. he's a fantastic kisser.. maybe thats why im sticking with him.. maybe..maybe.. but i dont feel the way i did for him before i left.. its amazing.. i think i am OVER him. haha
B.. hmm.. met him before i left..kept in contact for the duration.. so sweet.. such a cute person.. miss him loads.. talk to him almost every night.. went on 1 date with him.. and it was nice..i think also the reason why im not into it with A anymore is cos i have this thing for B.. but i know deep in my heart it cannot work.. it will never work.. wont tell u why..hahaha its sad.. but ill live for the moment. he's different than the rest that ive dated.. he's just so.. different.he's intruiging. hahah i think i really really miss him.. someone asked me yesterday why i miss him.. well.. i just miss being around him.. hehehe.. not saying its love. its too soon.. i need to get to know him better.. but i sooo do wanna see him again.. soon maybe.. he needs to ask me.
oh welll... guys. talking abt them.. i was supposed to go clubbing Nanerz tonight.. we asked 2 guys along.. and guess what?? they passed it up.. ahahah even when we decided we were just gonna hang out for some sheesha.. they passed us up.. amazing.. 2 guys.. hmm.. very strange.. mind u.. one of them was A.. hmm.
missing B lots.. seriously missing him.
muackzz
Bob Smurf at 9:51 PM
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
disappointment
im disappointed with myself.. truly.. i got a D for my french..seriously.. thats how bad my french is!.. i dont think i can continue with it.. damn it.. if not for that D.. i can apply for exchange.. but now.. i cant.. unless im doing 4th yr honors.. and go in my 3rd yr sem 2.. means i apply next yr.. but i dont want to do french 3.. i dont think my grades should suffer that.. oh well.. like i told my father.. i dont think i have a flair for language.. oh well.. i think my mom is disappointed in me.. damn.. im disappointed with myself.. ergh.. it doesnt matter... my other subs are ok.. mediocre but ok.. im no longer a 3. grader.. i feel so stupid.. at this rate.. i wont be able to do honors.. and then my parents will be soooo disappointed. ok well.. cut my losses.. and do the best i can for my other subs.. so far ive gotten 3 of my ps mods.
sigh.. u know i wish i could do something thats proud-worthy.. i mean.. im not expecting an award from the queen of england or soemthing.. but.. i wish i was that spectacular in something.. i have been so mediocre in my life that i think if this carries on.. im gonna be a mediocre political science student who will have a mediocre job.. with mediocre salary.. and basically.. a mediocre life.
i cant handle stress.. my hair falls out..oh well.. maybe i should save money.. then go overseas and work.. study then work.. i was wondering what it would be like to do a second degree..too bad its not free in sg..
stupid.. maybe i should just drop out and get married.. HUmph~
Bob Smurf at 5:35 PM
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
last night in germany
sighh.. yeah its sad..its my last night here.. last night watching tv dubbed in german.. last night enjoying the cold cold weather..but ive enjoyed myself tremendously.. its been absolutely wonderful.. the pple have been wonderful.. the food has been okay... and the places and the history.. has been absolutely enlightening.. must come again.. must must must.. who wants to come with me?
sighhh do i really have to go home tmr?
yeah i do.. im missing somebody.. and he's missing me too.. lalalala.. dont worry i miss all u cacat dots too! hehehe muackzz.. i have lots of story to tell u guyzz! hahahaha muackzz
till the day after tmr..
Bob Smurf at 4:50 AM
Saturday, December 09, 2006
berliner germany
hey hey! finally after a week i get to use the internet.. right now im at giessen at oliver's place.. he's the cutest german guy ever! and i mean cute as in he's absolutely funny and enddearing and tells cute jokes and stuff.. hahaha.. defintel will wish to see him again..
hmm.. he's got like vintage starwars posters and stuff.. and is really cute.. ill photograph some when i get the chance.. he says its ok.. hehehe.. just now at abt 11 plus.. me and him we took a stroll down the forest near his house.. pitch dark mind u.. seriously.. u cant see anything.. well.. until ure eyes adjust of course.. we saw horses... huge gargantuan horses.. like seriously.. mythical creaure sized ones!.. then we saw seep.. flffy fat ones that should have been asleep..
its a different type of livig here in giessen.. berlin on the other handd... whoa!!! must go again!! absolutely love it!! jeelly doughnuts and all! i managed to experience the nightlife n berlin! and maybe get some drinks out of it.. the dancing was crap.. but enjoyable.. majority of the pple had no idea what dancing is abt.. hahaha.. and i was dancing with this american dude.. i think his name is caliape..(rhymes with penelope).. typical californian guy wants to be a landscaping arrchitect when he gets back.. sure is rich though.. had 10000 to spend in 2 mths of holidaying.. he drank like 9 tall glasses of beer.. and was totall wasted on the dance floor.. but him. russell and erick were really nice.. ohh. these 2 gay guys were fantabulous too! kieren and andrew.. not together but they were fantastic... loved them the most.. my sister has/had a crush on russell.. this guy from birmingham uk.. reall tall and gangly.. but those types she lkes.. hahaha he's nice too..
sigh... i was all good though... ALL GOOD!! heheh i tink my holiday fun has just begun... hehehehe damn... should have stayed longer.. oh well.. hehehe i love germany! hehehe