Tuesday, December 26, 2006
disappointment
im disappointed with myself.. truly.. i got a D for my french..seriously.. thats how bad my french is!.. i dont think i can continue with it.. damn it.. if not for that D.. i can apply for exchange.. but now.. i cant.. unless im doing 4th yr honors.. and go in my 3rd yr sem 2.. means i apply next yr.. but i dont want to do french 3.. i dont think my grades should suffer that.. oh well.. like i told my father.. i dont think i have a flair for language.. oh well.. i think my mom is disappointed in me.. damn.. im disappointed with myself.. ergh.. it doesnt matter... my other subs are ok.. mediocre but ok.. im no longer a 3. grader.. i feel so stupid.. at this rate.. i wont be able to do honors.. and then my parents will be soooo disappointed. ok well.. cut my losses.. and do the best i can for my other subs.. so far ive gotten 3 of my ps mods.
sigh.. u know i wish i could do something thats proud-worthy.. i mean.. im not expecting an award from the queen of england or soemthing.. but.. i wish i was that spectacular in something.. i have been so mediocre in my life that i think if this carries on.. im gonna be a mediocre political science student who will have a mediocre job.. with mediocre salary.. and basically.. a mediocre life.
i cant handle stress.. my hair falls out..oh well.. maybe i should save money.. then go overseas and work.. study then work..
i was wondering what it would be like to do a second degree..too bad its not free in sg..
stupid.. maybe i should just drop out and get married.. HUmph~
Bob Smurf at 5:35 PM