Wednesday, December 27, 2006
my fix..
A.. and B... 2 pple that are in my life right now.. amazing..
im in a fix.. but not really a fix.. im meeting A later.. he's called A cos i met him first.. i dont think he loves me.. or even like me in that way.. i think he just wants to get into my pants.. bad right? yeah.. but then again.. i could never really figure out the guy.. so maybe this is how he functions. he never reciprocates anymore.. like how he used to.. maybe he's distancing himself from me cos he's leaving? (ack.. i think u all know who this is already) oh well.. before i left.. all i wanted was for him to love me back.. but then i realised after being away from him for abt 3 weeks.. with no contact for almost 2.. that i CAN live without him. and that he doesnt deserve me really... but dammit.. he's a fantastic kisser.. maybe thats why im sticking with him.. maybe..maybe.. but i dont feel the way i did for him before i left.. its amazing.. i think i am OVER him. haha
B.. hmm.. met him before i left..kept in contact for the duration.. so sweet.. such a cute person.. miss him loads.. talk to him almost every night.. went on 1 date with him.. and it was nice..i think also the reason why im not into it with A anymore is cos i have this thing for B.. but i know deep in my heart it cannot work.. it will never work.. wont tell u why..hahaha its sad.. but ill live for the moment. he's different than the rest that ive dated.. he's just so.. different.he's intruiging. hahah i think i really really miss him.. someone asked me yesterday why i miss him.. well.. i just miss being around him.. hehehe.. not saying its love. its too soon.. i need to get to know him better.. but i sooo do wanna see him again.. soon maybe.. he needs to ask me.
oh welll... guys. talking abt them.. i was supposed to go clubbing Nanerz tonight.. we asked 2 guys along.. and guess what?? they passed it up.. ahahah even when we decided we were just gonna hang out for some sheesha.. they passed us up.. amazing.. 2 guys.. hmm.. very strange.. mind u.. one of them was A.. hmm.
missing B lots.. seriously missing him.
muackzz
Bob Smurf at 9:51 PM