Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Bugger this.. i think ill get me a boyfriend

Hello!! ure friendly 21 yr old here.. yeah my bday has come and gone.. seems like i celebrated my birthday for a whole month.. hahaha oh well.. but more birthdays to come! hehe..

anyway.. stupid asshole named kurt is gone from my life cos he is an asshole. idiot fucking asshole idiotic numbskull (made me use idiot twice!) shit-for-brains player. yep.. playing the field 3 at a time.. and one at the side.. hmm.. yeah im bitter.. cos he said all those things to me and never meant it.. never ever.. not even once.. fuck him la. shit-for-brains like him dont deserve to live.. actually.. not even this space.. but u know.. id like the whole world to know that KURT ALEXANDER GANAPATHY IS AN ASSHOLE! why? cos he used me. used me to get his horny fix in the middle of the night.. and during the day sought to pursue other girls of interest. right. fuck him.. i have feelings too dammit!


but.. well.. i think its good this happened before anything worse does..this as in me finding out what a sorry piece of shit he is.. but im glad he's going. im glad he's leaving.. im glad ill never have to see his sorry piece of ass (or dick.. whichever..) ever again!

End Chapter in life
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that said.. i am now extremely happy to be in my limbo-in-like stage.. what does that term mean right? hahaa well.. means.. i like somebody.. and he likes me.. but we're in limbo cos we havent decided things yet.. till time passes and well.. we have to see how it goes.. maybe im just imagining a perfect relationship.. maybe he is too.. maybe he just wants to get married.. *GASP* NOOO! im too young! hahaha

but he's sweet.. i think im falling... down the stairs.. head over heels.. broken and bruised.. but loving it. =)

its too late (or early depending on how u see it) to talk abt relationships.. but i just wanted pple to know that i may be single.. but i dont think im available.. wahahaha stupid mats. im going to sleep now.. what a lateeee hour..

i think im going swimming tmr.. lalalalala... i love the feel of chlorine in the evening.. yech~ (but i just shampoo-ed my hair!!!)


ill stop complaining.. lalala.. yep.. i need to look good of course.. i wanna look good next to my would-be boyfriend.. long and hard work definitely.. but he motivates me.. he motivates me to study.. he motivates me to exercise.. he motivates me to eat less stupid food.. (whilst he himself eats stupid food..hmmm.. but body type different la..) hahaha

okla.. gute nacht!Ich heiße Ana und ich lese gerne viele Bücher! (lalalala show-off)


muackz!

Bob Smurf at 1:44 AM

Sunday, January 14, 2007

Read only if u need comfort from the stupid

Ode to the Bastards who know not what they are

they come to us with silver tongues
and honey in their touch
they tease and try to win our hearts
with passion full of desire
a woman lost in the whirlwind of love
caught in a web of lust and deceit
a temperament, perhaps
but mainly a bad deed.

they always bleed our hearts out dry
and kiss us a solemn goodbye
but all the love we have to give is nothing
and all the suffering we endured is dashed aside
as a romantic stroll down the park
a familar task and duty they set
a globetrotter of downtrodden hearts
we forgive, we believe
but most times,sadly
we forget.

but one must forgive the Bastard..
not illegitimate by nature
but a culture and tradition he carves
into his small blackened heart
for one day though not today
he will eat it..part by part

we must forgive the sad poor women
of whom we have become
to fall for sweet lies and honeyed deceit
are we at fault? are we to be blamed
for emotions that run amok?
over a man who seems to be the shining knight
the saviour of our tired bodies
only to be devoured by the hunger of the lusty


give a hand to the Bastard
a tight one across the face
or if u are indeed just
see him for who he is.. and pity him
for he is lost and much weaker than we are
we who have supported him..
we who have loved the unloved
a small pity for a small man
a small man with a small, charred black unfeeling heart.

Bob Smurf at 2:51 AM

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Less than a week to my 21st!!

hey all! i know some of u have been waiting.. haha but ok well i guess this is my wishlist for my 21st birthday happening on the 17th of January (in case some of u forgot hehe ).. so here goes..(in no particular order):

1)sennheiser or creative headphones
2)diamond necklace
3)4 gb red ipod nano
4)adizero running shoes
5)sponsorship for an eyebrow piercing ($75)
6)PSP
7)swanky nice swatch watch
8)Long Roxy wallet that's long enough to fit my cards and note money
9)a big crumpler bag
10)Money
11)Xbox
12)diamond stud earrings
13)Borders card vouchers
14)HMV cd vouchers
15)Sponsorship to europe this coming hols ($3-4k)
16)Nokia 7280 (its discontinued but check ebay!)
17)Nokia 7380 (also discontinued i think.. ebay!!)

hmm... i know i probably wont get most of the things up there.. so hahah well.. someone wanted me to put it up.. hahah just for kicks anyway.. muakczz

Bob Smurf at 8:24 PM

Friday, January 05, 2007

my long belated pics..

hey lovelies..

yeah i wanted to put pics up here.. but i uploaded it up on my shutterfly account.. easier to view that way.. haha.. =) mind u.. there are lots of nonsense pics of random buildings.. so erm.. if u have LOADS of time to view 2 albums of abt 200 odd photos.. go ahead..

  • Frankfurt,Berlin & Giessen


  • Munich,Bamberg & Vienna



    • well.. if u cant click on it.. do tell me on my board.. muackz..


    anyway... nadia came over my place to get her wallet and ipod cos she left them at the chalet yesterday.. (awesome party guys!).. and she said i write really angsty posts.. heheh seriously? hmm.. yeah well i am a closet angsty person.. lalala..

    i wanna go to europe this hols! i wanna go europe this hols.. but i have no time to work!! and i have no time to get enough money.. ergh.. i should start a 'help send ana overseas' fund.. hahah oh well..

    hmm.. maybe i can work weekends? i dunno.. oh well.. i always wanted to work as a barista.. but then again.. ive always wanted to get an eyebrow piercing and dye my hair green.. hmm but it aint happening..cos i dont think i can teach tuition with that kinda thing
    haha

    oh welll..

    i was talking to nanerz the other day and she was saying how having a bf means someone to be in place of ure friends.. u know how ure friends are sometimes away with their significant others.. and they almost have no time for u.. so u kinda need an alternative right? besides.. hanging out with a guy is wayyy different than hanging with girlfriends.. and i dont mean in the physical sense.. physical attractions are based on farce.. and u know i LOATHE guys who are in it just for the physical.. if he can hold out getting physical for half a year to a year.. whilst still staying faithful and interested.. maybe he's a keeper.. but how many of them can u find here? in NUS? seriously... in NUS.. im wondering if there are guys that are NOT looking for tudung girls just because they are looking for a wife.. ergh.. act your age dudes! sheesh.. idiots. but im not complaining.. if they dont want me.. i dont want them either..

    im grooming myself for the international palate... mmm... yummy.. haha..eye candies are sooooo refreshing when they are sooo hot but not full of themselves.. (eg in SG)


    my parents dont want me to work overseas.. so i asked.. why is it my brother can work overseas but i cant? i want to go.. i have always wanted to go!.. but my brother who initially didnt want to go.. left..
    and now.. he gets the opportunity to work overseas.. and i dont.. how unfair is that? it is..

    oh well. send me off to europe..

    toodles..
    im in for a sucky school semester... bleargh!

    ana

    Bob Smurf at 8:44 PM