Monday, March 26, 2007
the game of life and coke zero..
i know i havent blogged in a bit.. been busy.. slacking off instead of doing my work.. yeah well. so much for my resolution to get better grades.. damn u the system of high grades and bell curves.
whats the significance of my title? hmm.. haha well i know it may sound crazy but it was a damn awful boring thing yet at the same time highly entertaining. i shant say more. too many pple have access to this blog. shhhh!
ok ok.. im feeling emo. like not mozart type.. but like n'sync's "this i promise you" type emo. like.. im in the need to fall in love but i just dont have the candidate yet. hmm.. yeah
too many assholes ive dated who eventually just .. left. idiots.
but enough of my ranting and ravings. whats up with u guys? tag me
i need a coke zero right abt now. muahahaha.. and maybe feeling too.. ;)
Bob Smurf at 2:00 AM
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
SLIMMING CENTRE SPONSORSHIP!
i was watching a video on corporations last monday and there was one part of the vid where it featured 2 American dudes who sought sponsorship to enter college. So they advertised online for big corporations to sponsor their tuition fees and they would be walking billboards promoting the corporation's products.. so.. in my own way.. i ALSO want sponsorship.. but not just by any corporation.. as a slimming centre icon. hahaha so they sponsor my weight loss programme and thus i can be their poster girl.. YOU HEAR THAT SLIMMING CENTRES! I WANT TO BE URE POSTER GIRL! (just make sure im slim first.. hahaha)
*damn* wanted to upload my fat picture online but apparently the system's got a bug in it.. (as usual).. so anyway.. pleazse do consider me as a fully paid for sponsored slimming centre girl..
to all my readers.. do spread the word too.. i wanna know how i look like thin. hahaha seriously.
till the next time i can upload..
Bob Smurf at 10:16 PM
Monday, March 12, 2007
fascinating heartbeats
i watched 300 just now.. fascinating fascinating fascinating.. sighhH~ absolutely a must watch.. if u only can watch one movie.. watch 300.. its damn nice ah. haha
trust me.. sex, blood and gore.. plus glistening hot bods for the ladies hahahaha.. sighh~.. brave heroics plus wonderful fighting choreography.. the graphics are excellent man.. im raving abt it.. sighhh...
nak tgk lagi!
anyway.. im feeling very the blah right now la.. cos someone whom i was texting.. well.. whom i thought i would be able to err.. carry on with.. i think he realizes that im not what he initially thought i would be.. yeah well.. at night.. everybody looks different la.. even he did.
i mean.. the flirting was ok.. not too bad.. pretty fun.. not had something like his in some time.. but.. suddenly he stopped.. i think after he realized how i look like sans make-up and purple eyes.
right.. well.. time to stop dreaming ana.. a "dreamboat" like him isnt gonna be interested in someone ure size.. like seriously. unless ure willing to let him f**k u..
i hate it.. being single.. and shit like that.. being single is stupid. grr.
oh well.. if girls like A****i are amongst the girls he goes for.. (and trust me.. she's hot) what makes u think he'll ever have any inkling of interest in me.. like seriously.. he has ever had a thing for M****a before la.. and well.. one common thing.. they are both skinny athletic type girls.. SO NOT ME.. sheesh.. what the hell.. crazy sia.
no ah.. im not gonna let myself be further involved in this mess.. cos i dont think he likes me so i dont think i wanna go for this venture at all. plus he is from the school that i have banned myself from dating guys from. will only spell trouble la right..
okla.. whatever.. shall dream abt gerard butler and his glistening hot body tonight... sighhhh~ maybe someday ana... maybe..
Bob Smurf at 12:24 AM
Thursday, March 01, 2007
human unhappYness
today in my globalisation tutorial.. my lecturer was talking about how humans can never be happy.. as in.. for eg: even though u have a girlfriend/boyfriend.. u are not happy or satisfied.. and thus u search for something more and turn to myths and superstition.. do u turn to religion too? well anyway.. whilst i was thinking about this whilst he was talking and i realised that i am a person who is not easily satisfied. i have never been satisfied with what i have.. which im sure some of u are too..(whoever my non-existent readers may be).
what do i mean by not being satisfied with what i have? well.. absolutely not meaning this irritating pimple on the top of my head.. which hurts by the way.. noo.. but things that capitalism exploits us with.. materialism, love, culture even religion. commoditising our very own souls. scary isnt it? its hard to explain but.. i dunno.. just felt i need to say those things.
but going back to what i have.. or what i dont have.. one thing is for sure.. i DONT have a boyfriend.. but i do have pple i can have crushes on... person i can like. but am i truly happy? hmm.. that is subjective. what defines happiness anyway? love? being loved? gifts? i was thinking about him.. when my lecturer was talking about having a boyfriend but still being unsatisfied.. i thought about him.. i am insecure.. i mean.. how sure am i that he will wait for me? or more importantly.. I will wait for him? i mean.. its fine now.. cos its only been awhile apart.. but how much longer can i sustain not having the human touch.. the human kiss.. maybe ill set myself a record.. this yr.. keeping at least 1 of my resolutions. hmm.. maybe.. but who knows.. by december i might have to break it.. hmmmmmmm hahahaha right.
but im insecure.. what if he likes someone else.. am i holding him back? why do i feel jealous when we're not really together? ok well.. how can i expect a living breathing guy to stop the pursuit of ultimate happiness with someone more suitable.. especially maybe with someone close to me? (in a sense of course).
i dont know.. im not really seeing anybody else.. but i know ive caught some pple's eyes these past few weeks.. cute guys.. but i think bad boys.. hmm.. but i choose not to respond or do anything.. why? cos subconciously i want things to work with him? am i living a fantasy? am i pretending he is my boyfriend just because some pple actually do have actual relationships and i dont? am i?
i dont know.
Bob Smurf at 7:45 PM