Wednesday, April 18, 2007

bad dream; good dream

i dreamt of him last night.. the one that left.. it was a curious dream really. i dreamt he came back. i dreamt he said he was sorry. i dreamt we made up.. i dreamt i gave him a hug and told him i really really missed him. its amazing really.. does my subconcious really feel that way abt him when my concious.. well i dont scathingly hate him.. not anymore anyway.. but i just am indifferent.

i guess in a sense.. i lost a friend. someone i had pretty fun times with. and i lost him not when he left.. but when i did.. when i left him. its not worth it.. i told myself.. he wants other girls... was probably going for other girls.. and i think he misunderstood me. i dont know.. he's gone now. no use talking abt him. just very curious i should dream about him.

plus.. new guy. hahah nothing exciting really.. a match job.. hahah which i honestly think wont work out cos i think he is expecting a slim fair long haired girl.. who is preferably soft spoken and demure.. hmm.. well my friends.. u all know me right? err.. i dont think im like that at all.. haha

my aunts.. (they're the ones who did the matching).. i think they expect a bit too much.. thay want me to act demure.. to learn how to cook.. to slim down.. to eat less to pretend i have never had a bf.. its shocking really.. hahah i really think its shocking..

first of all.. the guy hasnt really spoken to me at all.. too shy? i dunno.. from what they told me.. he's tall, thin and good looking.. right.. and err.. just recently broke up with his girlfriend.. oh.. and did i mention.. he's 29.

my parents want this to work out.. its scary.. seriously scary.. i dont even know this guy and pple already want me to get hitched to him?? damn scary..

plus.. i think his mom is pretty scary too.. erm.. only graduate son.. who is a financial analyst.. works for an american firm.. if im not wrong la.. scary.. like.. u know what comes into my head.. the whole scary mother in law knife wielding sort... sorry sikit la.. im not the type to pretend to be someone else just to please pple. like seriously la..

sigh. well.. this is something new.. cos the guy hardly spoke to me when he texted me.. and when online.. he hardly talked anyway.. hmm.. too shy perhaps? or still pining for the old gf that left for aussie? hmmm... i wonder.. hahaha seriously ana.. what are u doing??

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Bob Smurf at 9:01 PM